Earlier in the year I wrote about the frustration women often feel as they try to conform their lives to one static image of a godly wife and mother rather than taking into consideration their own unique giftings and God-given passions. I argued that each woman’s obedience to the Lord will include the thoughtful use of her gifts rather than the suppression of them. Immediately after publishing that post I hoped to write a follow up article on the way love must always constrain, define, and direct the way we go about pursuing these passions–love for God and love for others. Our passions do not control us, but rather we are called to control and develop our passions for the glory of God and the good of others. It turns out my life itself has been the follow up post to that particular article as I’ve been forced to slow down on my writing here at Desiring Virtue in response to a very busy and exhausting season in our home.
Life in general has gotten busier as my three boys have continued to mature and as my oldest began his home education. This latest addition to our schedule has not been well-received by my toddler, who feels he deserves a monopoly on his mother’s time and attention. It turns out that an adventurous one year old can make teaching a five year old pretty “challenging!” My time and energy has also gone into the newest member of our family: a precious baby girl who is due in late September! What little time I have found to write has been dedicated to a special project that I hope to let you know about in the near future.
All in all, I’ve found blogging has fallen on the back burner for the time being. This is something I’ve had to ask the Lord to teach me to be content with. Though I’ve always said that my blogging “career” would need to ebb and flow with the different seasons of life I find myself in, when it comes right down to it, the need to “keep up appearances” in this online space is hard to deny. I am passionate about writing and about sharing practical theology with women around the world through this blog, and yet, I am more passionate about obeying the Lord. Sometimes this means speaking into less women’s lives for the sake of the children in my home. I’m confident that the prioritization of my family above writing will ultimately make me a better writer and a wiser teacher even if it means that my “platform” may suffer in the mean time. I’d rather have a smaller platform that’s built on a depth of genuine, obedient living than a large one teetering on misplaced priorities.
I also never want my passions to be a detriment to my family and church body, but rather I want them to be a benefit to them. I believe that in every season of life, the way I serve the Lord through writing will look different, because the needs of my family and church body will look different. Comparing the amount of blog posts I was able to produce when I had a 6 month old to the amount I’m able to produce with three children and while homeschooling is futile and ultimately defeating. These lives my husband and I are responsible for demand a tremendous amount of time and energy, but in the end, the faithful gardening we do in their lives will be the work we are the most proud of. I want to love them well, and often loving others means sacrificing your own passions for their good.
So is this a “goodbye to the blogging world” post? No, I intend to continue writing when the Lord gives me the opportunity to do so, which I pray will be often. I will continue to write for Credo Magazine’s blog every month as well as CBMW when I’m able to. Hopefully this online space will continue to be a place for you to come to regularly and be encouraged with the truths of the gospel, but I must confess that I am not a “professional” blogger at this time and as such my posts will continue to be sporadic. Really, I am just wanting to check in with you dear readers to say, “Yes, I plan to continue writing, however infrequently and randomly I can” and “No, I haven’t fallen off the face of the planet.” I’m just super busy with really good things. Praise God!
I’m incredibly thankful for each of you who takes the time to read my posts, and above all I’m thankful for the Lord’s willingness to use me to encourage you in your Christian walk. If you want to be sure to stay updated on each post I am able to write, I would urge you to subscribe to my blog. That way posts will get sent directly to your email and you won’t have to worry about missing one. You can do that by typing your email address into the box to the right under “Subscribe to Email Updates!” Also, I find it helpful to use a website called Feedly.com to keep track of all my favorite blogs. You can subscribe to any blog you want through Feedly and cut down on the amount of time you spend online by reading all their posts in one place!
Thanks again, dear sisters, for continuing to visit Desiring Virtue. May it always be a place that honors our Savior–even if that means it must be quiet from time to time.
“If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.” (1 Corinthians 13:1-3 ESV)
With great love,